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    Tuesday, November 10th, 2009
    5:42 pm
    it's official

    i'm at www.musykchyk.blogspot.com

    (what's your opinion)

    Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
    11:24 am
    My senior Recital
    So...this is it...my senior recital is this weekend. If you can come, it would be awesome. if you cant...i understand...but it is my big final last thing...and a good opportunity to listen to me play for about an hour. the program is kind of ridiculous...not your typical conservatory recital. it should be fun. it should be epic. and you should be there

    Works by: Bach Hindemith Martinu Stoyanova Piazzola


    Rachel's senior recital
    Sunday, April 26
    8pm
    Concert room (1st floor)
    The Boston Conservatory
    8 the fenway
    boston ma

    It's free and doesn't require tickets. you just walk right in.


    If you are planning on coming, do your self a favor and get there using public transit. There is a redsox/yankees game that night and parking will be a bitch.

    (2 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Thursday, April 2nd, 2009
    9:51 am
    who wants to explain to me how to upload photos so i can make a post with my senior recital flyer in it.

    yes...i did spell flyer with a y. it looks cooler like that.

    (2 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Monday, December 15th, 2008
    9:51 pm
    to tired to be elegant
    i'll be in the dc area from monday the 22nd to sunday the 28th.

    it's been over a year since ive had more than 2 days in town.
    i miss you all, and boston is beginning to grate on me.
    my phone number is on the book of face.
    send me a text or leave a message.
    chances are...i want to see you.
    even if it's been a while,
    or even if it hasnt.







    also. my senior recital is sunday april 26, 2009. 8pm.
    The Boston Conservatory, Concert room. 8 the Fenway, Boston, MA
    mark your fucking calendars.
    actually.
    no, seriously, i really want you to come.
    it's really fucking important.
    dont say i didnt warn you.

    (7 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
    12:19 pm
    My first recital ever
    Hey everyone

    So i'm giving my first viola recital ever this saturday. As opposed to concerts, where i play with a large group of people, the recital is an hour and a half of just me, and sometimes a pianist. This is probably the most important "concert" i'll ever play. It's the first time i've had to play viola in front of people for more than 5 minutes by myself so it would be great to have some familiar faces in the crowd. I know boston is kind of far...but if you happen to be in the area, it would be great to see you there. Obviously, my couch is available for crashing on.

    Here's the info:

    Rachel's viola Recital!

    Saturday, April 12, 2008
    8pm
    Concert Room (through the main doors and straight back)
    The Boston Conservatory
    8 the Fenway
    Boston MA


    i couldnt get the flier image to load but it's on my deviant art page if you want to check it out

    Current Mood: anxious

    (6 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Wednesday, August 22nd, 2007
    2:58 pm
    I'M ACTUALLY COMMING!
    OK, so i'll be in town from monday the 27th until atleast saturday the 1st. I havent decided whether i'm going to stay through laborday.

    ANyways...i guess i should actually start planning

    couches, couches?
    and does anyone want to hang out?

    call or text me if you're interested (i'll respond faster)
    see you soon guys!

    (1 opinion | what's your opinion)

    Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
    10:15 pm
    sooooo...i'm still going to come down...but quite as soon as i had originally planned

    my grad school classes end tomorrow and i'm thinking it would be a lot healthier to just sit on my ass for a week or two and unwind (i've spent the last 7 weeks in class for up to 12 hours a day)

    most people that know me well know that i hardly ever stop moving...so this is me going out of my way to attempt to slow down a bit

    i look forward to seeing people either the week of the 19th or the 26th (hopefully the couch availability will be plentiful)

    i hope i still get to hang out with people before they run off to school again for the fall


    in other news....

    take a look at my deviantART account =)
    i've added some stuff since i've hassled the lj community about taking a look, including a few pics from new orleans (some of the less "artish" pics are on facebook)

    let me know what you think =)



    and as long as we're talking about websites...if you ever wondered what music i listen to
    check out my last.fm page



    ps...yes pat...we're still on for brunch =)

    (4 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
    8:44 am
    Next week
    Hey....just curious


    If i come down to MD for the week of the 12th...would anyone be willing to lend me a couch to stay on...if a couple people can host me then i wont have to bother one person for an entire week

    ps...is anyone around next week that wants to hang out?

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Current Music: Modest Mouse

    (6 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Friday, May 11th, 2007
    11:06 am
    Still Frantically searching for couches to crash on
    ...but first...lets bring everyone up to speed on what i've done all year

    Academically

    -Just finished my first year at Boston Conservatory (it should technically be my junior year but things are weird since i'm a transfer student) First semester i got a 3.55 and it should be higher this semester.

    - Got accepted to the Boston Conservatory Grad program for Music Education. (which overlaps w/undergrad so I'm starting classes this summer). It's kind of a big deal, the program only accepts like 10 people a year. I got a ton of scholarship including a special one for being the most outstanding applicant from within the conservatory.

    Musically

    -I've improved an unbelievable amount this year, i've spent more time playing this year than the last several put together (those of you who know how much i was playing before will understand how much that is) at least 4 hours a day...usually closer to 6 or 8. I guess that means it's worth the money

    -I still play with a few other groups. I'm actually coming down in may for a concert with Soulful Symphony (http://www.baltimoresymphony.org/soulfulsymphony/aboutpartnership.asp) on the 18-19

    Socially

    -brendan and i have been together for almost 2 years (since mid july '05) and have been living together since last august. It's weird...we make really great roommates and everyone seems to be amazed that we only spend $25 a week on groceries.

    -I'm still a shitty friend...i've done a super crappy job of staying in touch with people in maryland, it's slightly better thanks to facebook but still...I'm looking forward to actually having time to hang out with people when i come down (in a week!)

    Physically (this is the big stuff)

    -so brendan and i bike a lot...i bike to school and everywhere else because it's cheaper and easier and usually faster than the bus or the T(subway)...about a month ago we decided that we were going to bike the entire boston marathon. So we took the commuter rail train out to the starting line and biked all the way back to boston. That means my chubby ass biked all 26.2 miles =) if you had told me that i would have done that a year ago i would have just laughed at you, guaranteed.

    -i got my nose pierced, right nostril =)

    -i got some work done on the tattoo on my back, so there is a tree around the words (vita brevis, ars longa) there are pictures on facebook

    -last july i started to dreadlock my hair...so after a year of looking like various degrees of shit (even though i've loved it the whole time)...it now actually looks like i have short locs

    -since last august i've lost about 30lbs. don't get too excited...i still look pretty much the same. i weigh about as much as i did when i graduated from high school (damnit why didn't somebody tell me i had gotten so fat!?!)

    my body must be some sort of magical because I'm still the same dress size that i was before i lost the weight....it's a little frustrating.



    ~~~~~~~~~~~~

    so that's basically it =)

    oh...summer plans
    (audience participation required)

    may 17-31
    wandering aimlessly around maryland trying to catch up with all of the friends i haven't seen. i don't have a place to stay (i know melissa volunteered her couch for a couple of night and za did too...but i still don't think that's enough for two weeks worth of shelter...i really don't want to be a burden on anyone so i was hoping to be able to spread my stay out over lots of people which will let me spend actual time with people instead of meeting them for coffee). i think I'm staying with Brendan's brother for the first few days but after that I'm on my own.


    pleas pleas pleas please please if you want to hang out for a night or two let me know if i can crash at your place =) or if you don't feel like lending your couch but still want to hang out, let me know...i still want to see you!!

    june 1-8
    hanging out in virginia with eric and katie and everyone else (I'm really bummed that brendan cant come, his job wont let him have that much time off). I'm still coming but was hoping for a ride down with someone (I'm still a little wary about driving long distances by myself...)

    june 9-19ish
    road trip to new orleans with melissa..details are crazy fuzzy but we're definitely going =)

    june 24-aug 10ish

    summer grad classes from 7am to 7pm five days a week

    and then school starts at some point in september. i think melissa mentioned that she might come up with ben at some point which would be cool.

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    damn that was a long entry...


    i miss everyone, I'm glad I'm coming home

    (6 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Thursday, February 1st, 2007
    8:45 pm
    musykchyk.deviantART.com
    after years of procrastination

    i finally made myself a deviantART page

    please go and let me know what you think


    http://www.musykchyk.deviantART.com

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Current Music: mos def

    (2 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Monday, November 13th, 2006
    1:19 am
    the sky is purple and i cannot see the moon
    i think im going to cry
    or throw up
    im not sure which quite yet
    i am quite sure that
    my heart is going far too fast
    for 1151PM on a sunday

    the clouds are out

    i think the city feel colder when you cant see the moon

    and bigger
    and farther
    and darker





    and here i am
    in the middle of this darker
    farther
    bigger
    and fucking cold city
    at MA1211
    not quite sure
    whether to throw up
    or cry

    ...yet

    Current Mood: harder

    (1 opinion | what's your opinion)

    Thursday, October 19th, 2006
    12:18 pm
    its like being horney but not really at all
    hey...look what i found...
    ::blows digital dust off of livejournal::


    well...here i am
    here i am in boston...
    at school
    doing what i wanted...right?


    i miss my friends
    i miss my life
    i miss my friends
    i miss my friends

    i know...it doesnt mean much comming from the worlds shittiest friend...who never picks up her phone and never returns messages or e-mails and who never shows up an who always seems to have too much other crap going on to spend time with you or even make it seem like she cares...

    well she does
    and she always did
    and she misses all of you
    like burning
    well...not really like burning

    more like you miss sex
    you're alright without it as long as you're preoccupied
    not thinking about it
    but then you remember what it was like
    and now you cant stop thinking about it
    before you had it you didnt know what you were missing
    then you have it all the time and you take it for granted
    and then its gone
    and you're alone
    and you miss it
    lie burning...
    but not really like burning
    ~~~~~~~~~~


    yesterday i woke up at 7
    8-9am-music history
    9-12:30- practice
    12:30-3- went to visit brendan at work
    3-4- orchestral conducting
    4-6-practice
    6-7 viola lesson
    7-8 practice
    8-9 chamber music (im in a guitar trio: violin, viola, guitar)
    9-11 Viola master class (its like watching other people have viola lessons)


    thats 6 1/2 hours of practicing
    2 more hours of playing viola
    2 hours of music related class
    and 2 hours of concentrating really hard on other people playing viola

    but this is what i wanted...isnt it?
    ~~~~~~~~~~~

    i want my fucking life back
    and yeah...im doing alright in boston...
    and i know this is where i need to be
    and i know how hard i worked to get here

    but i still want it back.
    ~~

    I WILL BE BACK THE WEEKEND OF NOVEMBER 20
    FIND ME
    I WILL ANSWER

    Current Mood: ...
    Current Music: pod on random

    (5 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Monday, March 27th, 2006
    11:45 pm
    i got in.
    i got in
    i got in
    i got in
    i got in

    im leaving howard

    im moving to boston

    im attending boston conservatory in the fall

    everything is changing

    its beginning to feel like easter
    ::read--april 2004--daer::

    after all

    Current Mood: well i just took a shot

    (12 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
    12:26 pm
    purge
    i hate
    i hate drama
    i hate tension
    but i guess without it there is never release
    and everyone knows that if its true in music...

    i hate
    overstated
    i dislike
    underrated
    i acquire that feeling
    in my in my in my
    every time i time i time i
    deal with this shit

    take it out on your own goddamn problems
    stop trying to involve me
    im not here to fix your life
    although i could be if you asked me to be
    come to think of it
    i could be anything you asked me to be
    if you even knew what to ask for

    ...maybe you should ask your brother
    unnecessary
    malicious
    delete

    you overreact to everything
    god i hate
    overstated
    i dislike
    underrated
    well i guess as long as you are aware
    are you aware?

    i just want to be
    away
    i just wish there was
    a way
    i can feel it coming
    that drama
    seeping up
    creeping up
    the back of my throat
    like 151
    ~~my favorite time of day~~
    fuck you
    you know you have nothing to complain about
    you drink it because it burns
    you love it because it hurts
    at least to hurt is to feel

    all i feel
    is the sour taste left in my mouth
    it say spit it out
    go try something else
    youve got a whole shelf of others
    without the burn
    without the burden
    without the drama
    stop playing with fire

    ~~

    its the push-it-away syndrome
    its the purge purge disease
    im a fucking emotional bulimic
    and im feeling kind of full

    Current Mood: nauseous
    Current Music: bob dylan

    (4 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Friday, May 6th, 2005
    10:52 am
    lets talk about rumors
    just more rumors
    when every word you hear
    is just shit painted from ear to ear
    without a stroke of truth
    they paint your mind with tainted images

    consider me turpentine
    and watch you lies run
    drip die decay decompose
    break down and apart
    because my breakdown
    will not be a part of your
    entertainment.

    why dont you leave the painting
    to the big kids who were there
    who create the original picture
    and color it how they chose
    dont you understand all you get
    is an outline of the truth
    and no thats not an invitation
    to shade it as you see fit

    act your age
    because im tired of your
    3rd grade word games
    here are some crayons
    scribble you lies with these
    so everyone can clearly see the
    lines of truth
    that you chose to cross
    to ignore
    to ignite that little artist in everyones mind
    who thinks coloring the situation
    is all part of the story
    a little outside the lines is ok
    just add some fire
    wax melts
    facts endure
    and dont think everyone
    doesnt see
    what youre doing

    keep it simple
    cut the crap
    and from now on
    i dont even feel like painting
    ill take my memories
    in black and white.
    photographs.

    maybe you should just
    stay
    out of my life
    out of my mind
    and out of my reality
    maybe you should
    stop
    trying to be so artistic
    with my actuality

    after all
    a copy
    of a copy
    of a copy
    of a copy
    of a copy
    well
    you get the idea.

    Current Mood: fed up
    Current Music: aesop rock

    (2 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Monday, January 24th, 2005
    12:39 am
    im only bitter because thats how it tastes
    this is not ok this is not ok this is not ok this is these is are is these are )
    these people are poison.

    get. out. now.
    you have your memories
    now run with them
    before reality can catch up
    you see what happens
    when you let things go too long
    and advice is left to expire
    it should have been taken
    long ago with the advil
    preventative.
    not in response to
    dont you know it
    takes a while to kick in

    prepare:++:you knew it was coming
    all you needed was a little more time
    keep putting it off
    its different this time
    but now its far too late
    and your heart burns in the worst way
    from the things youve left inside
    flush this poison from your body.
    get on your knees and back in your place.

    (4 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Thursday, October 21st, 2004
    1:23 am
    i didnt spell check...sorry
    this was my saturday evening after i got back from the chili cook off
    after i got back from tim's
    after a cold long metro ride
    and an even colder walk home

    this is a very real look at my saturday night
    if you dont feel like reading it (and you know it's serious because i dont usually address the people reading my journal)
    just dont. quit now
    please dont half-ass this one.

    the text in front of the cut is what came out of my head
    i realized how vague this was
    so behind the cut is the context.
    my saturday night. )


    i dont like myself
    understatement
    i hate myself
    overrated
    i dislike myself
    temporary
    is it?

    whats left
    this isnt right
    something is not right
    im the only thing left
    wrong left right write left wrong wrong

    im restless
    and fidgiting
    im getting antsy
    i dont like it here
    incorrect
    i dont like me here
    in this here and the now

    the more i see the more i see
    im losing myself in my own skin
    and i find myself more frequently picking
    tearing ripping at it trying to get out. i'm
    not comfortable
    am i even comfort able?

    and im tired of this goddamn stagnant air.

    no movement
    no change
    im in a corner and i cant even breathe the air i want
    trapped
    cycle
    pattern
    change
    commitment
    to what? nothing. a choice. something. to be.
    anything.anywhere everywhere but
    where there here they're here im not im lost

    im ripping at my own skin
    tripping trying to get away
    these walls are growing tight
    much like my lungs with this dead air

    Current Mood: no
    Current Music: jimmy eat world

    (14 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Sunday, September 19th, 2004
    7:13 pm
    the under____score
    you need to understand what i am saying
    you need to listen
    because im not trying to be cryptic
    or vague
    at all

    ~~~

    i have not been myself
    lately i havent
    been me

    since friday night i havent
    been_quite right i think ive
    set some tempers but i
    dont think you understand

    how many of you there
    are_you mad at
    me_anings and thoughts
    you cant know or understand

    ~~~

    ____i was looking in the mirror
    true
    while____he was sleeping on the couch
    false
    well____he was lying on the couch
    true
    and then____i got a phone call
    false
    well i guess____i missed a phone call
    false
    all i know is that____there was a voicemail
    true.

    and____i found something out
    no____i dont want to talk about it
    and no_____im not going talk about it
    and____im not ok
    no____i wont be later either
    and no____you cant help me get through this
    let me deal

    i am sorry
    to the/any/some____one
    i hurt\will hurt\am hurting
    but i need time

    ~~~

    its all
    vague
    i didnt want it to be
    cryptic
    all im saying is just listen
    because you need to understand

    that for a little while
    just a little while
    i will just not be
    one to____me____for
    you

    Current Mood: irrelivant
    Current Music: once upon a mattress---- you see?

    (4 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Sunday, August 29th, 2004
    12:12 am
    there is a feeling in my gut
    im not sure how to respond
    or get rid of
    do i want to get rid of
    im in the mid___dle of
    and who do i run to with
    this knot
    this not so terrible
    finally tying up loose
    ends happily ever after
    for once
    upon a time

    Current Mood: resolved
    Current Music: whatever alex is listening to

    (2 opinions | what's your opinion)

    Saturday, July 31st, 2004
    1:16 pm
    alliteration much?
    when youre standing in it, the drama tends to sit just above your eyes.
    high enough to leave the stagnant bystander hopelessly helpless and without a fighting chance.
    low enough to remind you that youre not completely in it with out one (save not for me but perhaps a better man)
    ^to rise above^
    that chance...as chance would have it... was not completely meant for you. that chance was meant for the next person in line, the last person on the list, the one with all of your dreams and none of your drama.

    oh no...an exception has been made for you
    the artificially strong
    the ambitions amateur who
    clawz
    and
    cutsss
    their way through to the top only to find their body too weak to complete the mind's riskier itinerary.

    unable to pull hard enough to escape the contoured chaos of artificial emotions and vacant statements you are left weary and alone. high enough to see more than the immediate, the imminent, the right-the-fuck-here and now
    but not to rise above.
    no
    not you
    not quite
    not now
    oh here
    yeah right
    quite not...you know.

    pull harder
    reach deeper
    and grab onto anything you can, because in this fucking drama___where i make the rules___all you have is your weak ass doggy paddle and youre sinking fast.

    just remember
    when standing
    it sits just above the eyes.

    Current Mood: alliterific
    Current Music: that type type type

    (3 opinions | what's your opinion)

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